God’s Masterpiece…

For some reason this week I was feeling lonely. It came and hit me out of nowhere. I was driving home Sunday night and this feeling of loneliness just came upon me. I started to miss my friends and family back in the west coast. When I got home, I sat on my couch and turned on my T.V. I grabbed my laptop to attempt to do some work to shake the feeling; I couldn’t shake it. So, I closed my laptop to have a conversation with God.
It went something like this… Why God? Why do I feel lonely? Why does ministry have to be so lonely? I do what you tell me to do. You say move, and I say when? and where? My prayer has always been to let me be stable somewhere, be married and start a family. You know I hate to move. You know one of my biggest desires is to be married to a man of God to do great works for your kingdom and yet I feel like my life is the exact opposite of that. I feel so lonely inside (as tears ran down my face.) And… just as I said that, He spoke to me and said “I am molding you.”
Don’t get me wrong, I have people here in Texas that love and support me, but the loneliness feeling was a different feeling. I didn’t tell anyone how I was feeling, but God. A few days later I go to Bible Study and as it was about to end my pastor starts to pray. He called for people who felt they were called to ministry to come to the front. As he and my first lady were praying for me and Braveheart, he said “it’s going to be a “lonely” road, but the rewards will be greater.”
I share this moment with you to say that God will sometimes bring you to a place of “loneliness” so that you will cuddle up with him. I remember telling my pastor (at a time that I was so hurt and broken from a relationship) that I felt like God allowed certain things to happen, so He could mold me back into the person He wanted me to be. God had to remind me that I’m in a time of “molding.”
Isaiah 64:8 says “And yet, O LORD, you are our Father. We are the clay, and you are the potter. We all are formed by your hand.” NLT
Take your situation, your depression, your worry, your loneliness, or whatever is breaking you right now as a time of God molding you. Sometimes we have to be at ground zero, so that we can allow God to rebuild us back the way He wants and needs us to be. Yes, your struggle may be tough, but remember that God’s “rewards” for your life are far greater than whatever you are going through right now.
In my time here in Texas I have experienced a lot of hurt and pain, but I can also say that my relationship with God has been closer than ever before. As God continues His work in me, He is also strengthening my relationship with Him. Sometimes life’s cards have to lay as they lay, because God has a greater plan for you.
Let God be your potter ~ He knows what is best for your life. God makes no mistakes. He creates MASTERPIECES!
“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.” Eph 2:10 NLT